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There. IÕve set up my Vertical andHorizontal axes - now time can begin. But how do we begin slowly ? With asmediation perhaps , a drawing on the wall, a moment of momentness- an opera of the deaf, as Aragon called it . How do we begin to see- not to extrapolate a fixed meaning , or an artistÕs intention , for those limit us to sociological or psychological; explorations . but how do we begin to begin . at the beginning . that which has not yet begun beginning , but must .

With Axes , says Wilson . With Form says Sontag . With Reading and Writing , says LeCompte . how does one writeexperientially? How do I make you , dear reader , feel. Not what I feel , because that is mine alone , but anything. Feel ANything. Do I fold and bend the page ?

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This is the end point Ð the meeting of Sontag and LeCompte and Wilson- Forman too- experience .Experience . Live - in that moment- that moment in singularity- a succession ofthat moment repeated - all unique . How Do I drive you out of your wretched mind? ( to quote Laing

What does the essayform purport to take on? What are its LIM itaTIOnS? Can I explode them?

How do I share my experience , that which cannot be transmittedÐ in a paper? I believe that is the essential (constructed ) claim of the work this week - that it goes beyond language- beyond coherence - beyond clear , nicely formed sentencesÉÉÉ

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I could rant at you on paper,tell you all that id wrong in the world , speak ofthe politics of fear , tsunami as disaster/metaphor .. I could rave about social injustice or the defense budget or racism . I could dance utopia by

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But can I get away from your desire to impose, to consider myhistory , my backround , my need to write this way?Do I have anything with which to move YoU? All I can say is what I have said .

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I have felt this week. Beyond language. Beyond meaning .

Beyond binary.

Beyond analysis.

I H Op e you felt something - anything

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